lauantai 27. toukokuuta 2017

Gijinkas I'm likely to make in the future!

The title pretty much tells it all.

I have a shitload of cosplay plans - and these gijinkas are a part of them. I've begun to order stuff for some of these already but I sincerely have no idea when I will debut these. Hopefully in the near future, even though Sannan-san and Yang Jinghua are my priorities right now.

But let's see what this list contains~!

Darkrai from Pokémon: The Rise of Darkrai
Yes, I've been planning to re-make this one ever since I made my first gijinka of this character. I was never pleased with it; I made it under a huge stress and, unfortunately, one can clearly see that I wasn't doing my best.
And back then I wasn't even sure what kind of a gijinka I actually wanted to make...
But yes, this is 100 % sure to happen in the future. I've loved Darkrai as a character ever since I saw the movie and I really want to cosplay this character again.

Yveltal from Diancie and the Cocoon of Destruction
I watched this Pokémon movie not so long ago and when I saw Yveltal I got the "I must make a gijinka of this Pokémon!!" feeling - and yes, this will definitely happen! It might not be my priority number one but still.
I haven't planned the whole costume just yet but I think that I pretty much know what kind of a gijinka I want to make.
Black and red Pokémons ftw.

Qurupeco from Monster Hunter 3 Ultimate

I pretty much lost my mind when I tried to hunt this one - really, it's not even that hard yet I still managed to spend way too many hours on trying to kill Qurupeco. Such hunter skills, much wow. :I

But yeah, when I got over my hate towards this monster I actually took a closer look at it - and realized that I liked its colors a lot. I've always loved and respected the element called fire too and after a few discussions with my hunter friends I decided to make a Qurupeco gijinka. I've already ordered stuff for this one.
Waiting for those feathers to arrive. :DD
This one will be one of my most expensive costumes by far, I know it already... Bye money, didn't need you anyway.

Kyuubi from Naruto
Because why not?
Naruto was one of the first series I got into when I stepped into the cosplay community. This demon fox has had a special place in my heart ever since. I mean, who wouldn't love an intelligent devil in disguise?

Kyuubi is extremely intelligent and independent character... And quite destructive, too. For some reason these kind of characters attract my attention quite easily.

I've already ordered some fabric for this one too and I've begun to think about the ways to make the tails. I have no idea when I will debut this one though but I hope that I'll manage to do it during 2018 - I have a feeling that making this during this year is highly impossible.

Alduin from Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim
"Zu'u Alduin, the first born of Akatosh!"

This villain dragon is pure gold. Even though he isn't that much of a challenge to kill (if you time the kill right) and he is one of the stereotype villains, there's still something special about him... And not just the fact that he's a massive dragon.
I'm still going to make Cicero someday but right now I have a feeling that I'll probably make Alduin first.

And hey, look at that design - it's going to offer me so much new challenges! <3

(By the way, I still can't get over the fact that Alduin's dragon brother Paarthurnax and Super Mario have the same voice actor...)

There they are, some gijinka plans! :)
I really don't know when I will debut these ones but let's just say that I don't have that many plans for 2018 yet (except for re-making Ayame and making Ritsu but yeah)... x)

See you soon~!


tiistai 23. toukokuuta 2017

Circle lens review: G&G Shinny Violet


Okay, this is my first time reviewing violet circle lenses - G&G Shinny Violet! These go by names G&G Puffy 3 Tone Violet and Barbie Puffy 3 Tones Violet also~
So, my first experience with G&G lenses wasn't very nice - G&G Natural Brown lenses caused me quite vulgar-looking bloodshot. And, sadly, these beauties aren't much better. I think that it's because of the bigger base-curve though; I didn't notice it before I had already ordered the lenses.

But now, the review~

The vials of the lenses.

The lenses in their vials.

Base curve: 8,9 mm
Diameter: 14,5 mm
Water content: 38 %
Life span: 1 year

I didn't feel these at all when I inserted these; they were actually one of the most comfortable ones I've put into my eyes during the time I've reviewed lenses. Well, when I did my make-up I sometimes felt a small sting when the lenses moved in my eyes but it was nothing too bad. 
After opening the vials I let these soak in the new solution over the night since the original solution (in the vials) irritates my eyes a lot. I have no idea if it does the same to you but I definitely don't recommend testing it. 

One lens in to show you the enlargement. 
Okay - moe eyes, that's what I thought when I inserted the first lens. These are more enlarging than I expected (according to the diameter). 

These have pretty much the same story than the other G&G lenses I own. These felt quite comfortable for those 4-5 hours I wore these but at some point they suddenly felt very dry and scratchy. When I took these off my eyes were bloodshot, once again. Remember: my eyes are quite sensitive and it seems like the lenses which have a base curve bigger than 8.6 mm are not suitable for my eyes so it might be one of the factors why these lenses felt uncomfortable in the end. Anyway, these didn't blur my vision as badly as my G&G Natural Brown lenses did. Actually I was able to see properly for the whole time. Not afterwards though.

The design of these lenses is quite beautiful in its own simple way. There are a few (I think that I spotted four) different shades of violet in these lenses and in the middle, surrounding the iris, is a brown asymmetric ring. I think that the ring surrounding the iris is there to help the lens color to blend with the natural eye color - which, in my case, doesn't happen since my eyes are a mixture of grey, blue and green (in other words: my eyes are light-colored). These look like they were designed for darker eyes but the design works pretty well in light eyes too! 
The limbal ring is semi-thick and it's colored dark grey, not black, For some reason I like that - black grey suits these lenses better. The design itself looks quite natural...

...meanwhile the color doesn't. Even though in some lights these look more grey than violet, they still look quite unnatural. 
The color is pretty lively thanks to the different shades of violet and these aren't as unnatural as some other lenses are (read: these don't have "I edited the color of my eyes on Paint" effect). These lenses aren't that pigmented either; I don't know if it's just me but I can see my own eye color through these quite easily. 

Some lens pictures! 

All of these © me during a sunny day in May.
Pics aren't edited in any way. 

Yellowish light.

Indoors, with a flash.

Indoors, natural light (gazing through the window).

Under the fluorescent lamp.

Bathroom light.

Outdoors, facing the sun. It was quite hard to keep my eyes open, sorry...

Outdoors, back against the sun.

From a distance.

  • The color is 7,5/10. It's vivid and beautiful violet - yet in some lights it has greyish shades. If you want "NOTICE ME I'M VIOLET" type of lenses, these are not for you. 

  • The design is 8/10. Pretty basic design, but the small details I mentioned (for example the brown asymmetrical ring) make these look lively. 

  • The opacity, in my opinion, is 7/10. In some lights it looks like my own eye color shines through a bit and, of course, it shows in the middle. Mainly the opacity is quite good. 

  • The comfort, sadly, is 3,5/10. The bloodshot was there once again, these felt very dry after wearing these just for a few hours. At least these didn't blur my vision as badly as my other G&G lenses have done by far. 

  • The naturalness is 2/10. The design is quite natural but hey, who has violet almost moe eyes by nature? :D 

  • The enlargement is 9/10. These make my eyes look quite huge, even though the diameter isn't that big.

And there it is, another (non-sponsored) circle lens review! ^__^
I'll try to become more active here again - I've actually bought fabrics and other stuff for my Keisuke Sannan cosplay and I have pretty many lenses to review (...and con summaries to publish, I'm almost two months late with those and three months late with one Krav Maga post...) so stay tuned!

By the way, got any questions? Ask in the comment box, send me an e-mail or contact me on social media! 


perjantai 12. toukokuuta 2017

"I can't cosplay him if I don't get thinner!" - in the clawing grip of anorexia nervosa

This day's post is, indeed, quite heavy and speaking about this topic isn't very easy to me. I've made a video about this a few years ago but since I'm not very active in YouTube I decided to write about this - maybe someone who fights with same kind of things finds some help here. Remember: if you want someone to talk to, my contact information can be found from the "How to contact me" site on my blog.

And, at first: this post is from my point of view. I don't mean that bigger-sized people wouldn't be good cosplayers or couldn't make good costumes - damn it, I've seen a lot of bigger cosplayers who are absolutely fantastic and way better than I am. This is basically a story how a sick mind works and terrorizes itself.


I had just gotten into cosplaying - and, almost immediately, I bumped into this topic: is person X valid to cosplay the character Z, if the person is bigger-sized than the character? In my opinion it was - and is - okay to cosplay a character which isn't the same size than you are, but back then I was very cruel and criticizing towards myself. I have never been, and I will never be, a thin person.

But back then I thought that I would have to lose weight in a maniac speed to be able to cosplay Sasuke Uchiha.

And so I begun my project of losing weight!

Taken in 2012 before I begun losing weight.

I think that I had a healthy base for my project in the beginning of it; I just ate smaller meals, decreased the amount of candy I was used to eat and exercised more. Yep, I changed my way of life to the healthier direction!
...except that all of it escalated rather quickly.

I had no memories of these messages but my friend reminded me about these:

A friend: "Are you feeling okay, you looked a bit sick today?"
Me: "Yeah, I have a small fever... Anyway, I have to go out for a walk so it might take some time for me to answer you." was December 2012. There was a snowstorm going on outside and it was fairly cold. I had a fever. I went out for a walk - and did that two times because I just had to.
Guess if I had eaten basically anything during the day?
If you answered no, you're correct. I had already stopped eating proper food. If I saw it, it made me nauseous. Basically I ate just a few fruits during the day and almost immediately after eating I had to exercise because I "felt the fat level increasing in my body". Well, of course that can't actually happen, but... A broken mind is broken.

I quit visiting my friends - I had to exercise.
I quit attending relatives' birthday parties - there might be cake and I HAD TO exercise.
My brother begun to put some of his own food onto my plate because in his opinion I ate too little.

But I lost weight and, in my own opinion, begun to look like a decent human being.
I lost 17 kilograms in less than a month and a half.

Okay, I know it's derp but I don't have better pictures from those times... I wore (and still wear) clothes that are too big for me.

I never looked like a skeleton. People usually think that if someone has anorexia the person must be very, very thin. But I wasn't. Yes, I got thinner but I was never a skeleton-like being. But I don't even want to know what I did to my intestines, for example my kidneys.
I'm also quite a good example of the fact that anorexia nervosa is a mental illness which just has physical symptoms. The main Hell happened inside my head.

In the end someone told me that I should seek for help. I don't really remember who it was but I think that it might have been Gure. At first I was quite resistant - I was okay! I was healthy! I was thin!
Then I had to contact the psychiatrist for other reasons (yes, I went to a psychiatrist since back then I stressed about everything so much that it affected my mental health and not in a positive way) and I happened to mention that I had been living like that for a while.
My healing process begun from that moment - but the battle was still not over.


27th of December, my 19th birthday. 
I hadn't been eating for the past few weeks basically at all - the food, once again, made me nauseous. It had happened again, the illness had developed itself slowly but surely again. 
I went to Rauma with my father and little brother. 

Those two hours we spent there were hellish. 
I shook, I almost fainted and vomited, my pulse was way too fast. I was pale as fuck, I was sweating and I couldn't breathe properly. I was quite sure that I was going to die. And it wasn't a panic or anxiety attack, I can tell you that. 
And it happened again two days later. I was supposed to travel to the north for New Year's Eve but I cancelled it and said that I didn't feel too well. 
I was too weak to even walk properly. Not to mention training or running. Nope, even rising up from the bed felt very, very bad. 

After that I begun to eat. The urge to vomit was always there, I didn't want to swallow - I just had to. And day by day I ate more and more until I finally reached the level called "normal". Trust me, it took me a lot of time...

This was taken during that healing time. And I'm starting to think that I should cut my hair again, lol.

Nowadays I'm on a diet which purpose is to develop my muscles - I train four times a week so I didn't want to just to lose weight. 
But nowadays I eat. A lot. And quite often. 
In a healthy way. 

It's not easy to get out of the claws of anorexia - I had it going on, more or less, for three years. And mostly it was because of cosplay. I'm not even kidding you. 
I didn't want to be labelled as "the one who is too big to cosplay anyone". 
Note: I'm not actually blaming the cosplay community. Eating disorders are just a symptom of a mind being sick - it all starts with it. But bullying (in school) and reading about the "who can cosplay and whom" topic didn't have a positive effect on my mind. 

I almost got myself into the hospital with this illness. 
I was waiting for the day I could count my ribs. And, every now and then... I still do. I just have to be strong - I can't let myself slip back to the old, damaging ways. 

This could have killed me. 
The worst part is the fact that at some point I begun to dream about dying - at least I could be the handsome skeleton then. 
Anorexia nervosa isn't a trend or a joke. It affects thousands of peoples' lives even now. It's one of the most common eating disorders in the world. It's definitely not a joke - people die because of it. And, had I not been strong enough to break its hold, I would've been one of them.
And even though I got thinner, it didn't make me happy. I never looked at myself like "wow, good job" - no, every time when I saw myself from the mirror I thought "there's still too much fat, I can't eat today either". So yes, being thin and losing weight might not make you happy. 

There's also a lot bigger reason behind all of this but I'm not actually ready to talk about it just yet. Someday, yes, maybe in the near future too but right now it's too much.

I have forgotten things from those years, I know that I don't remember everything. Maybe it's okay. Maybe I don't have to remember everything.
This post was everything but easy to write, really. But I'm still happy that I managed to do this - this is one of the ways how I deal with this thing. I'm pretty much healed from this sickness by now, and trust me: I'm very thankful to my friends who told me to get help. Without them I might not be here writing this blog post.

Everybody, take care of your friends, your family etc.

(A random make-up test for my OC Duante.) 
See you next time.


tiistai 2. toukokuuta 2017

"Where are my socks!?" - Eura's manga day 2017!


I know that I'm super late with my other blog posts but forgive me; my mobile phone, also known as my internet connection, decided to die. R.I.P Sony. At the moment I'm not even writing this on my own computer. ;__;

But, anyway!
A while ago I wrote a blog post (in Finnish) that I'd organize Eura's manga day (Euran Mangapäivä) this year. Believe me, it wasn't very easy task to do - you see, I only had a month to organize everything (which included going to the schools to speak about the event, writing my lecture notes, making the flyers etc.). I was also the main cosplay judge which meant that I also had to try to get some participants to the cosplay competition.
In the end we got four participants... Until one of them cancelled a day before the actual event. I was asked to consider cancelling the whole competition but I kept to it - we still had three participants left!

But let me tell you more about this event...

On 20th of April I picked Shiro Samurai up from Rauma's bus station. He had told me that he was willing to come to photograph the event and act as a second cosplay judge. So, on Thursday I drove to Rauma I HATE driving in cities, really and once Shiro Samurai had arrived we decided to go to one of the local Hesburgers - you see, he hadn't eaten anything during the day since the bus trip from north to south takes 8+ hours. I feel you dude, been there, done that. xD
Once we had eaten we begun to drive towards Eura since I had boxing practice later that evening. A bit after Lappi TL happened something...

Me: "Bla bla bla... Something in general... Bla bla b--- A MOOSE!!!"

And there it was, standing right in front of us - a female moose. It looked at us like "oh, you weren't going first?" and then crossed the road. When I continued driving I noticed that its calf was running back to the forest they had come from. If it hadn't it would've crashed into my car. Almost had a heart attack there, you know.
Anyway, we got to Eura and my boxing practice begun. You see, I've been into boxing for quite a long time now - such a nice hobby! ^^ We also do some boxing in our Krav Maga training <3

After that we drove to Hinnerjoki - it's the place where I live. During the evening we just hung out and spoke randoms since we couldn't stay awake for too long (I had to go to work on Friday). I let Shiro Samurai to sleep in my bed meanwhile I took the couch. I know, it's my house and all but I also know that he sleeps like a starfish and the couch is pretty narrow so... Yeah. Shiro Samurai told me later that during the night he had knocked down some stuff from the bedside table - twice. And I hadn't woken up. xD

21st of April, also known as Friday, was the "stress your brains out and snap at everybody" day. I become like that when I'm very stressed... Not a good habit at all but I can't actually help it. Sorry to everyone whom I shouted at. ^^"
On Friday I also got the news that one of the participants had cancelled and when I got home I had gotten a letter from the hospital (my legs have acted very weird lately, luckily it doesn't seem to be anything too bad)... :I
To get my thoughts off those things for a while I decided to take Shiro Samurai with me to the stable. He had told me earlier that he's always liked horses and ponies but hasn't had a chance to actually work with them before. When I told this to my friend Niina we decided to take him with us to the stable.

So yeah, at first we went to Niina's place dogeja <3 and then continued our drive towards the stable once she was with us.
I decided to work with the Shetland pony and Niina had decided to drive her own pony Penuuni Pena. To Shiro Samurai's surprise she told him that she'd take him with her for the ride - yes, dude, it was planned. :DD When they were... Somewhere (I don't know where, didn't follow them) I ran and walked with the other pony and did some psychological exercises with it. You see, usually when you walk a horse or a pony, you walk on its left side. This time I also walked the pony when I was walking on its right side. Believe me or not, for some animals it's very hard to understand what they have to do when something like that happens, even if it's not a big deal for the human walking them.

After our visit to the stable we speed-visited one of my friends, Janina lisää dogeja <3. Luckily I didn't wake her up this time, that's what I usually do. xD (She got her payback a couple of days ago when she just walked into my room when I had my headphones on and didn't hear anything including her steps and knocking on the door. Oops.)

When we got home I still got some stuff to do for Saturday, the event day. I had painted a banner for the event and failed, I'm not an artist you know and I had to iron it and sew its hem. I almost made everything too difficult, once again, but Shiro Samurai pointed out that there were easier ways to do those things I had to do. He ended up helping me, thanks! ^^
We also watched Vain elämää - a format in which a group of singers gathers together. Each one of them has "their own day", which means that during that day they get to plan different activities for the rest of the group and the other singers perform that singer's songs. This time it was Olli Lindholm's day and since both of us like 's music we decided to watch this episode. Worth it. <3

When the episode had ended we went to pick up Gure and drove to the house in the middle of nothing. That house creeps basically everybody out (except Shiro Samurai, it seems xD)... There's nothing wrong with it when it's still the evening but gosh, try to be in that house after midnight. I don't actually recommend it - there are weird scratching noises during the night and some people have said that they've seen someone sitting in the sauna or in one of the bedrooms... Someone who doesn't belong to this world anymore. I'm one of those unlucky people and it certainly creeped me out, bloody hell. 
And why in seven Hells were we there?
We had to cut a wig for Gure - my Chikane wig, actually. The bangs were way too long when I tried the wig on but when Gure tried it on the bangs looked very good. So, basically, we went there for nothing.
At least we had cookies.

The remainder of the evening/night was spent chatting and playing some Monster Hunter 3 Ultimate. I'm new to the game series and console gaming in general - I've mostly played on PC - but Shiro Samurai was kind and helped me when needed~
We stayed up WAY TOO LATE... And that became clearly noticeable the next morning.

Saturday, the 22nd of April.
The event day.
And the morning was just a big chaos.

At first it was quite difficult for Shiro Samurai to get up from the bed. I mean, we were supposed to be at the library at 9 a.m and he got out of bed at 8 a.m... :'D
Then I noticed that I had lost some cosplay items. Luckily this problem got solved but gosh, I almost lost my mind there for a while.
When we were finally ready to leave (after the damn make-up crisis which both of us had) my house we did it rather quickly, picked up Gure and begun our rally towards Eura. And hey, we were just that academic quarter late!
Once at the library we begun to put on our cosplays... And then I noticed that my tabi socks weren't with me. GREAT. Shiro Samurai had the "I have two left tabi socks and I have lost my nail polish" case (he cosplayed Itachi Uchiha) and then I noticed that I had forgotten to clean the nail polish off my toe nails (yes, I had cosplayed Itachi Uchiha a few days earlier). Just... Great.

The event poster including the time table of the day etc. Made by me. 

(All photos + photo edits in this blog post © Shiro Samurai - I didn't have my camera with me.)

A bit before 10 a.m my friend Traveller showed up. She had promised to bring some manga with her and that's exactly what she did - thank you! <3

Manga books for adults...

...and kids/youngsters. Some of these are Traveller's, some of these belong to the library. 
When she begun to put the manga books into their places I went to the cloak room and asked Shiro Samurai to help me with my outfit. You see, I - once again - borrowed stuff from him for my original kimono version of Sasuke Uchiha. Well, I had never worn hakama before and had no idea how to put them on. I should probably practice it since I'll need that skill in the future I got infected with the Hakuouki hype xD
When I had gotten into my costume I went to the public part of the library - and saw our first contestant! <3 She was a bit nervous but well, I can understand it: this was her first cosplay event ever and she had decided to compete. I mean... That courage tho! :'3

At this point I also told Gure - who was the judge of the drawing competition and the main leader of the drawing workshop - what I wanted her to do. She had developed her own criteria for the judging and I was more than pleased with them, thumbs up! Well, she went to the workshop room to get everything ready since she had only an hour to do that... Sorry, I might have made the timetable too strict ^^"
When Shiro Samurai had put on his cosplay I explained shortly what I wanted him to do and in which order; I had decided to prioritize photographing the contestants, everything else came after that.

...well, except for mirror selfies.

The Uchihas of this event~ narutardit saatana. :D

There was a problem with the light though; it was yellowish, no matter where you went in the room. Finally we found a place in which Shiro Samurai could photograph the contestants (the pictures can be seen here) without "The Simpsons" effect.
Oh, when we were taking test pictures - I was the one in front of the camera at this point - one of the pics turned out to be pretty good~!

Believe me or not, that's the same wig I wore for Japan. :D

Okay, so. My day basically consisted of keeping a lecture (about cyber bullying and how does it affect its victims) and checking out that everything went smoothly. And, of course, judging the cosplay contest.
At one point TheKageSama and NtiYuurei (I call them just Kage and Yuurei) appeared. Kage had taken her self-made Lan Fan (the other spelling is Ranfan) armor with her so that we got to put it on the book shelf so everyone could see it. Thanks Kage for bringing it with you~!

Just before my lecture I noticed that the other two contestants hadn't arrived - and the cosplay competition should have started in 45 minutes. Guess that amount of stress and panic... Yuurei promised me that if only two contestants show up she could be the third contestant. Luckily during my lecture the second contestant arrived and just a bit later the third contestant showed up. I was quite happy to see them. :DD
Oh, and there were also some journalists, photographers etc. from Länsi-Suomi (a magazine here in Southern Finland). I answered some question and then they took a group picture of us - Katri (a contestant), Kage, Yuurei, Shiro Samurai and I. I hadn't been prepared for something like this happening (well, now when I think about it it's quite obvious that if something happens here in Eura the journalists will come to that event) and had a small heart attack when they told me that they want to photograph our cosplayer group.

Every now and then I went to check how Gure was doing with the drawing workshop. She seemed to enjoy it quite a lot - at least I haven't heard any complaining from her after the event or during it. :'D

Soon it was time to show the contestants where they should walk during the competition, in which order they would enter the "stage" (also known as the hall & part of the corridor in between the book shelves), where they should pose etc.
And at this point I learnt that I was supposed to host the competition. Luckily my improvisation skills aren't too bad.
Anyway, we - Shiro Samurai and I - judged the contestants by these criteria: how well one could recognize the character, how well did the contestants act like the character and how creative they had been when they had made/gathered together the pieces of their costumes. You see, I had decided that the costumes didn't have to be self-made, I just wanted to see great costumes and people brave enough to take part in the competition. <3

This picture pretty much shows our stage area.
Oh well, it took us some time to decide which one of them should win but I still think that we did the right choice. All of our contestants were amazing and brave - this was a first cosplay competition for each of them! ;__; <3 Dear contestants, if you read this; I really do look forward to seeing all of you in other conventions sooner or later~!
Soon after Gure had finished grading the drawings and it was time to announce the winners of the drawing contest. There had been seven participants in that contest - probably not that much, but better than nothing and well, it's about the quality, not about the number of the participants ;)

And soon Mangapäivä was over.
Guess if I felt empty?
I had been working my ass off that I could get everything ready in time (in a month) for those four hours.

The banner I made. Not too artistic but I only had two days to make this so yeah.

...I will never say again that I don't have any cosplay costumes...

I printed pics of some anime characters and laminated them + put them into their places.
These are just examples of what I did... But I'll tell more "making the event" stuff in the end of this post.

When we went to take off our costumes I heard Shiro Samurai calling my name. I turned to look at him...
Those damn socks were under Gure´s bag for the whole day, damn it xD
And, eventually, Shiro Samurai found that damn nail polish from his bag.
We're just one group of genius people. Such Einstein, much wow. xD

I owed Shiro Samurai a pizza for untangling the blue wig Gure wore and I was quite hungry too so we drove to the pizzeria (and Gure visited Alko to buy products for all of us). We decided to share a pizza since, well, I'm not Uncle Scrooge ^^"
Attention! The next photo might disturb some people who are quite sensitive... You can look at it but don't blame me if you get traumatized.


Yes - there is PINEAPPLE on our PIZZA.
Khm, back to business. :DD

Shiro Samurai had to leave on Saturday evening but there were still some hours left. During that time we played some MH3U and just hung out in my room. Had it not rained (it had been raining and snowing for the whole day) I might have dragged him out for a walk but it was a no-can-do-situation. xP
Well, at 10 p.m we begun our drive towards Rauma (it's the nearest Onnibus stop) and the bus even arrived in time! :'D When Shiro Samurai had left (gosh, it was weird to go home when there wasn't anyone except me and my family - I get used to other peoples' presences quite easily) I drove back home and went to bed. I was tired af. :'D

But, yeah, about Euran Mangapäivä...

I'm really thankful to my boss and my co-workers that I got the chance to organize this kind of an event here. Of course it was stressful - heck, it was my first time doing anything like this. Because of that stress I underperformed (also known as "didn't meet my own standards") - yes, most event attendants told me that they will come next year too if the event is organized and of course I'm happy about it.

Still all I can think about is "could have been like x, should have done y".

It could've been worse, I admit it, but something was missing, something just... Wasn't there. For some reason I felt like I had failed. There were not many attendants - yes, the quality walks over the number but still.
There should've been a lot more activities, I admit that. More panels, probably artists' alley... The list here is endless, to be honest. This event wasn't a complete failure since the attendants liked it, but I'm not very happy with myself and probably wouldn't be even if I succeeded, that's just one of my negative personality traits. Should've done more, should've done better. But at least I learnt something - and no, that doesn't mean that I would think that I can't do this kind of things. This event taught me a lot about organizing things, making timetables and, especially, about myself.
Right now I don't really know what to think about Euran Mangapäivä 2017... Well, it could've been better but at least it wasn't a complete failure. A small event, I admit that, but... I don't actually think that it was a bad thing. Gosh, my thoughts just clash with each other. x__x

But, anyway; thanks to my boss & co-workers for giving me the chance and time to organize this event, Shiro Samurai for photographing & helping me with judging the cosplay competition and Gure for leading the drawing workshop and judging the drawing contest. I would've been so lost without you all. :') <3

Right now it isn't sure if there will be Eura's manga day next year - it depends on so many things. But I really hope that even if I move away the event would be organized, there are so many potential cosplayers around here but not everybody has a chance to travel to a con which is held at least 200 kilometers away or abroad. :'<
But, thank you for reading this blog post~! When I get an Internet which actually works like it should work, I will become more active here again! ^__^